Easier

On any given summer morning you can find me relaxing after a good workout with my computer. I love reading. Anything. Still working on that last Twilight series. Yes, still. 

The past few years I usually read most everything on the Internet. Blogs included. There's something about reading what other people are going through. Learning that I'm not alone in whatever struggle has tackled me at that moment. Reading words of inspiration and different perspectives in order to open my mind just a bit more. 

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The past week or so as I read, I realize a very common thing in most of the blogs: fear. Whether it be the anxiety of the unknown future, the "skeered" feeling you get right down in your stomach when taking a risk of any kind, fear of putting themselves out there in relationships, or just the basic  insecurities of find that one person in the world that makes life easier. 

Fear is such strong emotion. It causes anger, bitterness, detachment, conflict, strain . . . I could go on and on and on. I won't. That's a whole different blog that I will touch on later. 

Why do we fear the thing we want the most? 

- a new job

- losing weight

- a better relationship

- taking a risk

- accepting love/friendship

Here's what I think: 

 

We fear what will happen once we have what we want. It's not the actual "thing" we want that we fear as much as it is the AFTER. 

I've always said to my students "Feel the fear and do it anyway." 

Fear can control your entire life unless you allow yourself to feel it and keep going. This is what makes your life a lived life. 

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No matter what we want, what we fear, or where we are in life we all want that person next to us to make life easier. 

"And I'm not afraid

Nothing you can say that's gonna make me walk
away
No matter what you do I
promise you I'm gonna stay
You need someone like me to make it easier"

I'm sitting here writing and living the life I've always asked and prayed for - for once, I've weeded out all the dramatic people in my life who suck the energy right out of me. I have a job a truly enjoy that allows me time to spend with the girls more often than not. I have two great children who fill my heart with laughter and joy every day of the week. I have the friends I've always knew existed. I have found the man that is every "check" on my "list." 

Is that scary? I'd be lying if I told you "no." It IS scary to have everything you've ever asked for, dreamed of, and prayed about. It is scary to know that having what we want in life is up to us. It's scary knowing that in order to keep all of it we have to work through our own fears so that all will blossom into much more than we could every imagine. It's scary to know that life is 10% what happens to us and 90%  who we become because of it. 

It's up to us to feel the fears and push through them. It's up to us to not allow them to run out lives. 

Having someone there to make it easier is a true blessing, but even so, we alone have to push ourselves higher - elevate - and "do it anyway" in order to be who we really are meant to be.